The saying, “Don’t make a mountain out of a mole hill” is a saying we, as believers, should adhere to. I wonder how many, like myself in the recent past, have gotten to the place where we began to create mountains in our lives out of mole hills (situations) and thereby exalting those mountains over the God that we serve.
With all the changes taking place recently it seems that we have to stretch ourselves in faith in so many different areas of our walk. It isn’t as in the beginning of our walks where we had the luxury of focusing our faith on one area at a time. Now, we have to stretch our faith to cover a multitude of areas in our walks at one time, and in this it is easy to allow some of one’s mole hills (situations) to become mountains, especially if you have been dealing with those mole hills (situations) over a period of time and it “appears” as if nothing is changing.
The end of a year is usually a time where one reflects on the failures and successes of the year that is coming to a close. One begins to reflect on where they are at, where they came from and where they know they should be. For me, I have never received the type of revelation that I have received this year but I also have not experienced death (the dying of one’s SELF) as I have experienced this year. It is as if I was like the pumpkins at Halloween that individuals carve to make Jack O Lanterns. It is as if God Himself carved open my top and began to scoop out everything that was NOT of Him, Perceptions, Mindsets, Religion, Self (to name a few), uncomfortable to say the least.
As more of what wasn’t Him came out, more of what IS Him became abundantly clear. One thing that was clear is that I had allowed the mole hills (situations) to become mountains and I was beginning to exalt those mountains over God. I began to meditate on these mole hills (situations) until they became as big mountains in front of me. Mountains that were beginning to obstruct my Vision. Now, rather then seeing clearly in front of me I was trying to see around the mountains at the vision. I was trying to jump up to see above the mountains at the vision. The bigger the mountains got the smaller the vision became and the smaller I felt. This is because for me there is no me without vision. Mix those emotions with the emotions that one experiences because they are about to birth that vision and you have an individual headed straight toward the spirit of oppression, depression and fear. It can be very overwhelming.
Recently, as I lay on what I felt was my deathbed, as I lay and went over every mountain and all that was in me that has yet to be released or seen, the change that I know the Lord placed in me to birth that would probably go against what religion has taught us, I heard the Lord whisper to me, “Daughter, with man this is impossible, but with Me NOTHING is impossible”. At that moment it was like something went off in me again. It was as if that fire was ignited again. “Yes Father, You are right. I serve the God of the impossible. How dare I begin to exalt my situations and glorify my situations over the God who can make the impossible…possible”. He then revealed to me regarding the mountains that had created themselves (with my assistance I’m sure). And only one in relationship with God can sit at His feet and allow Him to reveal what has created one’s mountain. For everyone it is different, it could be fear, pride, a mindset, low self-esteem, rejection, the sense of failure, bad choices, one’s past, lack, and the list of course can go on and on. I was so focused on that which was impossible in my situations that I was missing what was possible not only at this particular moment but what could be possible in the near future.
He then shared with me that back in August He had dealt with me about the vision for my life and how I was entering into my last trimester of someone who was to give birth. 2009 is going to be the year of the birth. It is going to be the year that we begin to birth that which has been in us. Every change that has taken place this year is because He has had to step into what man created and dismantle it so that He could begin to build what He designed. Everything from churches, ministries, our country, school systems, the economy, and our relationships to name a few.
He then took me to Isaiah 54 which begins with the speaking of the barren woman. A woman who is barren is a woman who is not able to produce. Of course, with vision, both men and women can be barren. He revealed to me three reasons why so many of us have become barren and not able to birth that which is in us. (1.) Some of us are not able to birth because we have not yet arrived at the place where the birth is to take place. For some, that place may not exist yet or that place may exist but may not be ready for one yet. (2.) Some of us are attempting to birth in a place that doesn’t belong to us, and rather then release that place because of fear or pride we attempt to force that place to be the place for the birth (3.) Some of us have been so beat up and so focused on our mountains that we don’t feel we have the strength to give birth. We must see the birth of vision as important and we must see the importance of now birthing what God has designed and not what we desire to create. The reason it is important is because there are others connected to our vision. Someone’s restoration, faith, healing, peace, prosperity, salvation and so on are connected to the change we are to birth. Church/God can no longer be about being entertained or made to “feel” good it must be about seeing His work come to pass. It can no longer be about the titles, the exposure, the entourages, the celebrities but becoming a servant. It can no longer be about the lifestyle it must be about the life. What is the point of having a lifestyle if you have no foundation or knowledge on how to maintain it? In Isaiah 54 the children that are to inherit the nations, inhabit the desolate cities and be taught by the Lord are the children of the vision. The children that are a product of the vision we birth.
Now how do we get all this done? Well in Isaiah 54 the Lord instructs the barren woman to sing. For us it is simple, we speak it. The Lord instructed me to (1.) Speak to my mountains and cast them down (2.) Get His perception and His mindset on where I am at and where I am headed (3.) No longer worship Him from the place in which I am at the moment but to worship Him from the place in which I am to be, the place that belongs to me, that place that has been mine since the foundation of the world, since before I was in my mother’s womb, since when He created man, He created them and blessed them, basically since He created my mate, He created We and Empowered Us! (That is another message)
I am no longer focused on the day to day. Now that the mountains have been removed and I can clearly see what is in front of me I am focused on the big picture. Those connected to the vision and those I am to be connected to for the vision. I’m focused on what is to take place a year from now, 3 years from now, 7 years from now. This is the place where I worship Him from, the place of it being already done. I’m speaking Word not for where I am at now but for where I am going to be. After all, where I am at now is a product of either the Word I did speak or chose not to speak. I’m speaking Word now so when my moment comes I will walk into that Word. That moment will be covered and prepared for me. I will walk into a place designed and destined for ME. A place where I am not only going to receive the Harvest I am to receive at that moment but I am also going to receive the Harvest I should have received had those mountains or even choices not prolonged it. It is what we call Restoration and this is why Restoration has to bring double. Your not just receiving the Harvest for that moment, you are also receiving the Harvest from the past. One thing I am learning is that when you are focused on Him and what He (not man) has called you to do, you can’t help but receive what is yours, whether it is the one you came out of or the one that came out of you (mate-should you desire that), the possession of land, your inheritance, healing, strength, peace, promotion and so on.
Not just naturally but spiritually we are in an exciting transition. And everything and everyone who played a part up to this point, good or bad should be appreciated for without the good and the bad you would have never learned or grown or gotten, like me, to that place where you know that you know that you know where you are headed and what it is to look like. No more counterfeits, no more confusion, no more guessing. It will be exactly as He placed in you. So, moving forward, don't allow the mole hills (temporary situations) in your life to become permanent mountains.
According to Mark 11:23 once you speak to your mountain(s) to be removed and cast into the sea, doing so without doubt in your heart and believing it is done…it is done. Once removed it is important to ensure that you begin to speak His will and not your own for we have what we say and in this moment we must ensure that this time around we are speaking and in what doesn’t just "appear" to be Him to the onlookers (which is where we have been at) but that we are in what "IS" Him! And you will know what IS Him because you will see the fruit, you will see the growth. You won't be experiencing loss you will be experiencing gain. And though challenges may come you will have this memorial that with God, NOTHING is impossible.
Friday, November 7, 2008
Monday, September 22, 2008
This thing we call TIME
Time determines so much in our lives. It speaks to us what time of the day it is, day of the week, week of the month and month of the year. It also speaks to us the season we are in and not just naturally but spiritually. However, spiritually it is easier to miss the changing of a season because sometimes there may be no outer indication that the season has changed except the knowing in your Spirit. Kind of like California where it seems we are always in the same season because you don’t see the indications you do on the East Coast such as the leaves changing or the snow.
Time also dictates to some whether they have succeeded or not, usually by their own timeline. Individuals dictate by this time next year or by this age some goal they want to accomplish and so on and so forth. More times than usual the dictation is based off their own desire and if for some reason their goal does not manifest by the time dictated they look at themselves as having failed.
Now anyone who walks with God, and I mean in true relationship, will realize more sooner than later that His time is usually NOT your timing and thereby if some of these man given goals have yet to manifest it does not indeed mean one has failed. It may mean that you (or those connected to you) are not yet at the place (spiritually and naturally) where you are ready to walk in it, even if you “feel” as though you are.
The Bible says that to everything there is a season, that to the Lord, a day is as a thousand years and a thousand years is as a day, that His thoughts are not our thoughts nor are His ways our ways. You must allow the Lord to reveal to you what season you are in and then find peace within that revelation. For someone the season may be one of the lime-light but for you it may be the season of hiding or waiting and vice versa. If it is the prior and you do not find that peace you may begin to attempt to take matters into your own hands thereby either messing it up which could then prolong it even more or you could get into it not prepared and end up losing it. Even when the Word, the Prophetic Word comes forth, you must receive it for YOU and allow the Holy Spirit to reveal to YOU where that Word fits within your walk. Time is under our dominion but it is our responsibility to discern what time it is for US as individuals. We must discern when in the Presence, when in worship, when in prayer what we must do to be ready for our time, to be ready for our moment. We must be sensitive to what God is instructing us to do within that Word, Prophetic Word and what He is having us to declare and stay consistent in that so it can bring forth our season.
We must eventually move our trust from others and even ourselves to Him with the understanding that He knows better than we do when our season, our time has come to receive what He pre-destined for us before the foundation of the world. For it is that which He pre-destined that is destiny, that which will last and stick, that where you will be sustained. Everything else is purpose. It gets you to that place of destiny. And through this time of trusting you must learn to take your focus off everything around you and look past the present to that which He has shown you your life is to be and no matter what it “appears” to be – good or bad your trust must be in Him. Not everything is as it seems so why attempt to compete with it. Some situations are like the fig tree. From afar the fig tree appeared as if it were producing but once Jesus came up close to the fig tree it was clear that it wasn’t producing. Some situations are the opposite. Like when Jesus had to feed the five thousand with only five loaves and two fish. The situation can look impossible and within a second God’s Word swoops down and the impossible becomes the possible.
I used to be in that category of believers that would hear the Word, receive the Word, and declare the time “NOW”. I now see that I really wasn’t dissecting what I received with God. Like most I wanted to see change NOW, I wanted to step into it NOW. NOW J I see that the desire for NOW for most comes from either pressure of family, friends, society or even self. It can come from anxiety, a burden or pride. I’m at a point now where I am delivered from others wrong opinions or what they think regarding me and what God is doing with me. His peace speaks that I am exactly where I need to be. And it is nothing else but His peace. It isn’t me out there trying to get attention, it isn’t me running all over the place doing useless things that in the end don’t fulfill or produce, and it isn’t in me trying to make something happen – intentionally or unintentionally. It is just simply His peace.
Over the past few months I have really grown in my trust in God, and with that growth in trust has come a great peace that what belongs to me belongs to me. Even if someone else is occupying it, it is only for a moment, only until God says, “Enough is Enough, its baby girl’s time to step in and occupy.” I’ve also come to realize that I really don’t want what is mine until it is time, until it is ripe. I don’t want what is mine before He has had a chance to do what He needs to with all parties involved. I want the fruit ripe. I believe that in this everyone will step in knowing what to do and actually doing it. All that other “stuff” will be out the way, less drama and fewer mistakes. All parties will be able to hit the ground running and start producing. All who are to receive will have their hearts in the place to receive. Especially when it comes to a relationship, as the woman it is my desire to bring increase to my mate when he joins himself to me, rather then see him decrease when he joins himself to me. So if I am not who I need to be for him and to him when we are joined or if I settle or rush and join myself to the wrong person the latter can happen. I realize now that one can have BOTH the natural and the spiritual in one person, you don’t have to settle for just one side, you can have the whole package. Imagine that power!
At that I have now learned to embrace this thing called time. Not to waste it. Not to rush it. Especially since in this year we are to see years restored to us that were wasted. Why waste more years dealing with the same people, situations? Release and see the restoration. I’m learning that every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year is a moment that I have to PREPARE. It is a moment that I have to evaluate me and those around me. It is a moment I have to make a mistake without it affecting those it could affect had that mistake happened once I got into what He pre-destined for me. It is a moment that I am able to go deeper in God to not just see another side of Him but to see another side of me for I am Him. It is a moment I can nurture that around me, mature, grow with those around me or that in which who I am with, and get to know those around me or that in which who I am with. Time is something to be treasured and appreciated not rushed.
Time also dictates to some whether they have succeeded or not, usually by their own timeline. Individuals dictate by this time next year or by this age some goal they want to accomplish and so on and so forth. More times than usual the dictation is based off their own desire and if for some reason their goal does not manifest by the time dictated they look at themselves as having failed.
Now anyone who walks with God, and I mean in true relationship, will realize more sooner than later that His time is usually NOT your timing and thereby if some of these man given goals have yet to manifest it does not indeed mean one has failed. It may mean that you (or those connected to you) are not yet at the place (spiritually and naturally) where you are ready to walk in it, even if you “feel” as though you are.
The Bible says that to everything there is a season, that to the Lord, a day is as a thousand years and a thousand years is as a day, that His thoughts are not our thoughts nor are His ways our ways. You must allow the Lord to reveal to you what season you are in and then find peace within that revelation. For someone the season may be one of the lime-light but for you it may be the season of hiding or waiting and vice versa. If it is the prior and you do not find that peace you may begin to attempt to take matters into your own hands thereby either messing it up which could then prolong it even more or you could get into it not prepared and end up losing it. Even when the Word, the Prophetic Word comes forth, you must receive it for YOU and allow the Holy Spirit to reveal to YOU where that Word fits within your walk. Time is under our dominion but it is our responsibility to discern what time it is for US as individuals. We must discern when in the Presence, when in worship, when in prayer what we must do to be ready for our time, to be ready for our moment. We must be sensitive to what God is instructing us to do within that Word, Prophetic Word and what He is having us to declare and stay consistent in that so it can bring forth our season.
We must eventually move our trust from others and even ourselves to Him with the understanding that He knows better than we do when our season, our time has come to receive what He pre-destined for us before the foundation of the world. For it is that which He pre-destined that is destiny, that which will last and stick, that where you will be sustained. Everything else is purpose. It gets you to that place of destiny. And through this time of trusting you must learn to take your focus off everything around you and look past the present to that which He has shown you your life is to be and no matter what it “appears” to be – good or bad your trust must be in Him. Not everything is as it seems so why attempt to compete with it. Some situations are like the fig tree. From afar the fig tree appeared as if it were producing but once Jesus came up close to the fig tree it was clear that it wasn’t producing. Some situations are the opposite. Like when Jesus had to feed the five thousand with only five loaves and two fish. The situation can look impossible and within a second God’s Word swoops down and the impossible becomes the possible.
I used to be in that category of believers that would hear the Word, receive the Word, and declare the time “NOW”. I now see that I really wasn’t dissecting what I received with God. Like most I wanted to see change NOW, I wanted to step into it NOW. NOW J I see that the desire for NOW for most comes from either pressure of family, friends, society or even self. It can come from anxiety, a burden or pride. I’m at a point now where I am delivered from others wrong opinions or what they think regarding me and what God is doing with me. His peace speaks that I am exactly where I need to be. And it is nothing else but His peace. It isn’t me out there trying to get attention, it isn’t me running all over the place doing useless things that in the end don’t fulfill or produce, and it isn’t in me trying to make something happen – intentionally or unintentionally. It is just simply His peace.
Over the past few months I have really grown in my trust in God, and with that growth in trust has come a great peace that what belongs to me belongs to me. Even if someone else is occupying it, it is only for a moment, only until God says, “Enough is Enough, its baby girl’s time to step in and occupy.” I’ve also come to realize that I really don’t want what is mine until it is time, until it is ripe. I don’t want what is mine before He has had a chance to do what He needs to with all parties involved. I want the fruit ripe. I believe that in this everyone will step in knowing what to do and actually doing it. All that other “stuff” will be out the way, less drama and fewer mistakes. All parties will be able to hit the ground running and start producing. All who are to receive will have their hearts in the place to receive. Especially when it comes to a relationship, as the woman it is my desire to bring increase to my mate when he joins himself to me, rather then see him decrease when he joins himself to me. So if I am not who I need to be for him and to him when we are joined or if I settle or rush and join myself to the wrong person the latter can happen. I realize now that one can have BOTH the natural and the spiritual in one person, you don’t have to settle for just one side, you can have the whole package. Imagine that power!
At that I have now learned to embrace this thing called time. Not to waste it. Not to rush it. Especially since in this year we are to see years restored to us that were wasted. Why waste more years dealing with the same people, situations? Release and see the restoration. I’m learning that every second of every minute of every hour of every day of every week of every month of every year is a moment that I have to PREPARE. It is a moment that I have to evaluate me and those around me. It is a moment I have to make a mistake without it affecting those it could affect had that mistake happened once I got into what He pre-destined for me. It is a moment that I am able to go deeper in God to not just see another side of Him but to see another side of me for I am Him. It is a moment I can nurture that around me, mature, grow with those around me or that in which who I am with, and get to know those around me or that in which who I am with. Time is something to be treasured and appreciated not rushed.
Wednesday, August 6, 2008
I'm Pregnant!
Most hear that statement and already assume the worse! OMG! She did it! She's single, she met someone, she did the deed and now she is paying the consequence for her actions. LOL! Not quite. This woman isn't pregnant with a living fetus inside of her that has come from being intimate with one of the opposite sex. This woman is pregnant with a living vision inside of her that has come from a position of intimacy with the One who created her!
I had never been as clear in my hearing during prayer as I was at the beginning of this year. I was excited about what the Lord was speaking to me. I was expecting what the Lord had showed me. I had faith that could move mountains. I was passing tests that I had failed so many times prior. Before I could even goto the Lord with a question He brought the answer. Before I could even go to the Lord with confusion or a concern He brought peace. It was as if I was Adam in the garden walking perfect with God.
Then, ALL OF A SUDDEN, I started getting very emotional. I started getting frustrated easy. Nothing was moving fast enough for me. Individuals and situations that I was graced to tolerate before I was no longer able to tolerate. One minute I knew what God was speaking, had spoken, the next I was the double minded man the Bible talks about in the Book of James. At times I felt the spirit of depression attempt to attach itself to me, it may have possibly done so. All I wanted to do was sleep and watch and read anything that had to do with the Italian mafia. (Yeah, I'm Italian and a sucker for anything that has to do with us and find the structure of organized crime fascinating and for some reason the choice of entertainment for when I am in those seasons of wanting to do nothing.) I didn't want to hear God, talk to God, go to fellowship. I didn't want to receive the Word, hear the Word, quote the Word. What is ironic though is that if I was called upon by someone to minister to them I was able to do so even in the midst of the place I was in. (I guess are Anointings really aren't for us) The place was an uncomfortable and unfamiliar one. Uncomfortable and unfamiliar in that I could not figure out what was going on with me. I felt like Rebekah in the Bible where it says that she conceived but the children struggled together within her and she said, "If all is well, why am I like this?". My closest friends will tell you those words actually came out of my mouth more then once. I kept asking God, "Why am I like this? Why is this bothering me? Why do I have no tolerance for this? Why am I questioning this?"
He led me to Genesis 25: Verse 23 and there it was, "And the Lord said to her (Rebekah), "TWO nations are in your womb, TWO people shall be separated from your body, One people shall be stronger than the other, And the older shall serve the younger".
What I was sensing was what a woman would sense when she is in her third trimester. The trimester right before she gives BIRTH! I do not find it strange now that the Prophetic Word in this 8th month, the month of New Beginnings was to get ready and get in position for the transition. To remove oneself from those things/people that can not go forth into destiny with you for at the end of this 8th month things would be cemented and fixed and thereby that which one is involved with one would be involved with for awhile. Basically if you are involved with things/people that can not go forth into destiny or are involved with people or in things that are keeping you bound and you don't release it/them you would have to wait out another cycle until the next time the Lord declared a Word of release to get out. It is a season to get ALONE with God and wrestle with your destiny. A season to be honest with God about everything and anything. A season to re-examine self to ensure all your T's are crossed and I's are dotted. A season to release anything that would hinder you from moving forward such as fear and pride. I also do not find it strange that all this preparation must be done before the 9th month comes forth which is the month of birthing.
A friend of mine looked up what happens throughout the different trimesters. Below is what we found regarding the third trimester:
"...As you enter into the final trimester of your pregnancy you may notice that you feel more sensitive, emotional and anxious. Be rest assured, these feelings are very natural. It's common to begin worrying about about what kind of mother you are going to be. Many times, the increased size and weight of your baby can cause increased pain (often in your back), making you feel more uncomfortable and anxious."
There it was. Everything I have been experiencing. Being overly sensitive, being emotional and being anxious. Worrying would what God spoke come to pass or wouldn't it. Not realizing because the vision had increased in size and weight due to it getting ready to crown was why I was experiencing so much pain. Not physical but emotional, mental and even spiritual. After all, I have nations in me. I'm not here to birth a religion. A bunch of Do's and Don'ts. I'm here to establish a Kingdom. I'm birthing something that has never been seen or done before. I'm not just a cute face with a nice shape. I am the sounding board, the establishing balance and the confirming witness. I'm the one, like Anna in the Bible who has BOTH the natural and the spiritual and shows up because of the need! I have the Word in my mouth. I'm rare. Of course I would be experiencing all of these side effects and of course the enemy would not want me to complete my term. I was in a place all to UNfamiliar. Which makes sense. I've never actually gave birth to something. I was in a place all to UNcomfortable in that I knew while in this last trimester there were/are things in me that were being put to death, especially with my mindset, because they could not go forth with me into this next season/cycle.
Now hear I STAND ready to re-focus. Ready to continue to nurture the vision that has been within me that is screaming to get out. Ready to see this through to its FULL TERM! Without fear and without question. And by myself if need be. To think that the enemy almost saw his way in attempting to abort that which I have been nurturing for the past so many months...even years. God really doesn't give us more than we can handle. He steps in right at that point where we are ready to go down for the count.
Be encouraged for those of you who also have been carrying and nurturing that seed (vision) in you...those of you who are in a place all to uncomfortable and unfamiliar...YOU WILL DELIVER SOMETHING HEALTHY....YOU WILL SEE IT THROUGH TO FULL TERM...YOU WILL NOT MISCARRY OR ABORT...and you will then nurture it as only the one who God gave it to can as it grows into EVERYTHING God has spoken to you it is to be.
That is how you know it belongs to you. Despite what you may have gone through while carrying it when you birth it you are able to step right into it and start nurturing it. It will be effortless. You'll be familiar with it because you have been carrying it. (Kind of like when man recognizes the one he's been carrying - but thats another blog) You won't have to learn how to do it you will be able to just flow in it because it has been in you and was destined for you before the foundation of the world. You will remember the pain no more when you begin to see it blossom and produce fruit. You will be in your moment and you will shine there.
Press in and get ready to push for His best is yet to come!
I had never been as clear in my hearing during prayer as I was at the beginning of this year. I was excited about what the Lord was speaking to me. I was expecting what the Lord had showed me. I had faith that could move mountains. I was passing tests that I had failed so many times prior. Before I could even goto the Lord with a question He brought the answer. Before I could even go to the Lord with confusion or a concern He brought peace. It was as if I was Adam in the garden walking perfect with God.
Then, ALL OF A SUDDEN, I started getting very emotional. I started getting frustrated easy. Nothing was moving fast enough for me. Individuals and situations that I was graced to tolerate before I was no longer able to tolerate. One minute I knew what God was speaking, had spoken, the next I was the double minded man the Bible talks about in the Book of James. At times I felt the spirit of depression attempt to attach itself to me, it may have possibly done so. All I wanted to do was sleep and watch and read anything that had to do with the Italian mafia. (Yeah, I'm Italian and a sucker for anything that has to do with us and find the structure of organized crime fascinating and for some reason the choice of entertainment for when I am in those seasons of wanting to do nothing.) I didn't want to hear God, talk to God, go to fellowship. I didn't want to receive the Word, hear the Word, quote the Word. What is ironic though is that if I was called upon by someone to minister to them I was able to do so even in the midst of the place I was in. (I guess are Anointings really aren't for us) The place was an uncomfortable and unfamiliar one. Uncomfortable and unfamiliar in that I could not figure out what was going on with me. I felt like Rebekah in the Bible where it says that she conceived but the children struggled together within her and she said, "If all is well, why am I like this?". My closest friends will tell you those words actually came out of my mouth more then once. I kept asking God, "Why am I like this? Why is this bothering me? Why do I have no tolerance for this? Why am I questioning this?"
He led me to Genesis 25: Verse 23 and there it was, "And the Lord said to her (Rebekah), "TWO nations are in your womb, TWO people shall be separated from your body, One people shall be stronger than the other, And the older shall serve the younger".
What I was sensing was what a woman would sense when she is in her third trimester. The trimester right before she gives BIRTH! I do not find it strange now that the Prophetic Word in this 8th month, the month of New Beginnings was to get ready and get in position for the transition. To remove oneself from those things/people that can not go forth into destiny with you for at the end of this 8th month things would be cemented and fixed and thereby that which one is involved with one would be involved with for awhile. Basically if you are involved with things/people that can not go forth into destiny or are involved with people or in things that are keeping you bound and you don't release it/them you would have to wait out another cycle until the next time the Lord declared a Word of release to get out. It is a season to get ALONE with God and wrestle with your destiny. A season to be honest with God about everything and anything. A season to re-examine self to ensure all your T's are crossed and I's are dotted. A season to release anything that would hinder you from moving forward such as fear and pride. I also do not find it strange that all this preparation must be done before the 9th month comes forth which is the month of birthing.
A friend of mine looked up what happens throughout the different trimesters. Below is what we found regarding the third trimester:
"...As you enter into the final trimester of your pregnancy you may notice that you feel more sensitive, emotional and anxious. Be rest assured, these feelings are very natural. It's common to begin worrying about about what kind of mother you are going to be. Many times, the increased size and weight of your baby can cause increased pain (often in your back), making you feel more uncomfortable and anxious."
There it was. Everything I have been experiencing. Being overly sensitive, being emotional and being anxious. Worrying would what God spoke come to pass or wouldn't it. Not realizing because the vision had increased in size and weight due to it getting ready to crown was why I was experiencing so much pain. Not physical but emotional, mental and even spiritual. After all, I have nations in me. I'm not here to birth a religion. A bunch of Do's and Don'ts. I'm here to establish a Kingdom. I'm birthing something that has never been seen or done before. I'm not just a cute face with a nice shape. I am the sounding board, the establishing balance and the confirming witness. I'm the one, like Anna in the Bible who has BOTH the natural and the spiritual and shows up because of the need! I have the Word in my mouth. I'm rare. Of course I would be experiencing all of these side effects and of course the enemy would not want me to complete my term. I was in a place all to UNfamiliar. Which makes sense. I've never actually gave birth to something. I was in a place all to UNcomfortable in that I knew while in this last trimester there were/are things in me that were being put to death, especially with my mindset, because they could not go forth with me into this next season/cycle.
Now hear I STAND ready to re-focus. Ready to continue to nurture the vision that has been within me that is screaming to get out. Ready to see this through to its FULL TERM! Without fear and without question. And by myself if need be. To think that the enemy almost saw his way in attempting to abort that which I have been nurturing for the past so many months...even years. God really doesn't give us more than we can handle. He steps in right at that point where we are ready to go down for the count.
Be encouraged for those of you who also have been carrying and nurturing that seed (vision) in you...those of you who are in a place all to uncomfortable and unfamiliar...YOU WILL DELIVER SOMETHING HEALTHY....YOU WILL SEE IT THROUGH TO FULL TERM...YOU WILL NOT MISCARRY OR ABORT...and you will then nurture it as only the one who God gave it to can as it grows into EVERYTHING God has spoken to you it is to be.
That is how you know it belongs to you. Despite what you may have gone through while carrying it when you birth it you are able to step right into it and start nurturing it. It will be effortless. You'll be familiar with it because you have been carrying it. (Kind of like when man recognizes the one he's been carrying - but thats another blog) You won't have to learn how to do it you will be able to just flow in it because it has been in you and was destined for you before the foundation of the world. You will remember the pain no more when you begin to see it blossom and produce fruit. You will be in your moment and you will shine there.
Press in and get ready to push for His best is yet to come!
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