Change

In this interesting, sensitive season of change I have been introduced to yet another side of God. I am witnessing Him in ways I have yet to experience. I am seeking with a fresh hunger and thirst for understanding and in that this is what I have received thus far regarding this interesting, sensitive season of change.

The Economy: I realize, for the one in covenant with God, that even with all that is transitioning for us it is not a time of retreat but a time for advance, it is not a time of loss but a time to possess. The Bible says that we are to be the Lender, not the Borrower, but up until this point the majority has lived on borrowed money. The majority lives, drives and wears that which is owned, not by them, but by some organization or business. Could this be because the church has defined the word “blessed” with what one has materially? The church, for a time now, has equaled the blessing of God with the size and location of one’s home, the type of car one drives or the label one wears. The church equivalents lifestyle to blessing rather than the change of one’s live to blessing. The definition of blessed is empowered. It would seem that one would be empowered when one has dominion over their life and all that their life involves, even when not all ducks are lined up in a row. It would seem then that true blessing is one having their right mind and peace through a season of chaos, it would be one having their health, it would be one being joined to the one that they’ve been carrying (or to the one that has been carrying them if you’re female), it would be one having enough to pay their expenses AND the expenses of someone else because they have more than enough, it is knowing the principles needed to acquire that which has belonged to you before the foundation of the world and being sustained in it with joy for true blessing doesn’t accompany sorrow.

I now recognize that 2008 was a year of evaluation for those of us who “claim” to be about our Father’s business, for those of us who were chosen to bring forth and birth change, which when I refer to change I am really referring to restoration for I believe the change we are experiencing now, the transition taking place is God stripping what man created to re-build what He designed. God must ensure that in this next wave, those in leadership have their heart right with God and toward God. God is separating the wheat from the tares in this season. He is checking to see that even if He allows one to lose all will one still serve Him. It is easy to serve God when everything is handed to you and you have all you could imagine, but can you still serve God when it seems all has been taken and what you desire seems so out of reach? Those who know God the answer is easy, yes, because we know what to do to re-build and know that re-building His way and according to His pattern this time it will last.

The appointing of now President Obama was very significant. It shows that God is now choosing and positioning for this next wave. It also shows that the heart of his people are ready to receive those He will position even if it doesn’t look how they thought it should look. For a moment He stepped back and allowed His creation to make choices, and as we can see, His creation made a mess of something so precious and sacred. His creation, again, designed something based off their own desires and even off what they felt was needed rather than according to His pattern. God has spoken, “enough is enough”. There is no more time to play church. Someone’s life, even in other countries, is relying on His creation to now be about His business and He knows better than anyone who has the right heart to do this. In this season the body is the pieces on a chessboard and God Himself is positioning those who are sincerely about His business, into places of leadership. Those who are not about what others can do for them but what they can do for others and He is removing those who have been about their own gain.

While this moment is exciting it is also very unfamiliar which is why I have learned that when in an unfamiliar place one must allow for there to be space between one’s self and God. One must allow God to go before them for the way is not one in which they have been before (even it appears similar to one’s past) but if you allow God to go first and follow you will end up in your promise land and with different results.

For me it is unfamiliar because in 2008 I began to see my life move forward in more than one area and heard God speak in ways I had not before and then saw my life come to a complete halt in more than one area, with no explanation. Where there is no explanation you must ask questions otherwise you will be confused. At that I had a choice, I could get my mind on the season and come up with my own conclusion, or I could get His mind on the season and know the “real” conclusion. I chose to get His since He knows all and sees all. See, people who get His mind aren’t shocked when certain circumstances happen. I feel as though God removed everything and everyone that I could depend on so that I can only depend on Him. Now, I can only depend on Him to know the time and the season, what Word(s) need to be coming forth from my mouth in this season of Harvest (yes, I said Harvest), to speak to my thoughts and give me peace when my flesh decides that it wants to have a discussion with me contrary to what God has instructed me to speak and believe, to give wisdom when it comes to decision making. I also recognize depending on Him in this way will be needed for my destiny. I must know Him as the all and all in my life. Therefore this unfamiliar place is beginning to be identified. It is a place of preparation that will be followed by promotion into the place that was destined for me before the foundation of the world The place that I only I can occupy because it was created for me and I for it.

I urge anyone in an unfamiliar place to get to know the One that created you for in knowing Him you really begin to know you. Unfamiliar places can also bring pitfalls so I also urge, and I know this from experience, anyone in an unfamiliar place to stay in a place of consecration. An unfamiliar place can lead to vulnerability (among other things) and vulnerability can lead to wrong decision making that one may regret later. Sometimes it is best to BE STILL until you are ABUNDENTLY CLEAR rather than attempt to do something on your own when you are treading new territory.

In this transition we must hold fast to our confessions, we must continually plant His Word, water His Word until that Word Harvests, we must obey His principles (especially financially), we must seek Him not people and obey even if it doesn’t make sense, we must worship even if we don’t have full understanding as to that which is taking place and we must trust like never before, even in loss, that the One who created us is finishing what He started concerning us and seeing it through till completion. I know He didn’t bring us this far to leave us!

My prayer life has changed recently. I see the big picture isn’t about those in my circle or me it IS about those connected to those around me and me. My prayer in this season, “God, you can take things and people from me but please don’t take the Anointing for it is the Anointing on me that others need most and it is the Anointing that equips me to go where no one else can and do what no one else can.”

Be encouraged…Your BEST days are ahead!

Healing

Healing can occur in more realms than just the physical, such as in the realm of the emotions, mentality and the spirit. I also believe that the key to physical healing is first being healed in the realm of the emotions, mentality or the spiritual. For only once the emotions are submitted to the Word and the Promises of God, only once the mentality of the one who is in need of physical healing can break out of the negativity, break out of the role of the victim and wrap their mind around the Word and the Promises of God regarding physical healing, and only once the one who is in need of physical healing is spiritually connected to the One who heals and has received their salvation through the One who heals and understands that at the time of their salvation they became a joint heir with the One who heals and thereby their healing was already received on Calvary will one be able to then believe for the One who heals to heal them.

In I Believe in Miracles it mentions that Kathryn Kuhlman strongly disapproved of anyone having the idea that her ministry was devoted only, or even primarily, to the healing of sick bodies. Ms. Kuhlman had many teachings but what everyone remembers is the many healings of sick bodies that took place and it is in this realm that the present day church operates. Now don’t get me wrong, healing of sick bodies is something we should rejoice about and ensure to give God glory for (not man) but I think it is just as important to ensure that the healing of one’s emotions, mentality and spirit take place for it is through these healings that one will gain the understanding regarding physical healing not just for themselves but to share with others. It is great to receive the miraculous power of God in a circumstance but it is greater to walk out of the circumstance with understanding of the miraculous power of God. Understanding of His Word and His Promises regarding one’s circumstance, understanding of what occurred at one’s time of salvation, understanding of what spiritual weapons to use in what season, understanding of the Anointing and how to move the Anointing into any situation by the Word, understanding of what to do when the Holy Spirit, the Power of God is present and understanding of how to reverence the Holy Spirit, the Power of God when present.

The Lord has had me studying the services of Kathryn Kuhlman and the many testimonies that took place in her services. Within the first chapter of the first book I was brought to tears. I realized just how far the present day church has gotten from the reverence of the Holy Spirit and how today the church reverences things more than the presence of the Holy Spirit, positions and titles more than the presence of the Holy Spirit. It seems the church is more interested in performing an entertaining service rather than letting the Performer of the miraculous have liberty to move. It seems the church is more interested in showcasing one’s gifts rather than showcasing the One who is the giver of the gift. It seems as soon as the atmosphere is at the place where He can move the green light goes on for the congregation to move with people jockeying to be seen laying hands or delivering a Word with the majority having no understanding in what they are doing.

What the church has learned very well is how to copy, how to copy the world, how to copy other’s anointing and callings, other’s worship, and other’s ministries. Copying does not bring forth the miraculous power of God. Dying to one’s self does. The present day church must learn what it is to die, to be broken. Watchman Nee wrote it like this, “Only one kind of basic dealing can enable man to be useful before God – brokenness.” Kathryn Kuhlman has been quoted to say, “I die a thousand deaths before every service.” Now I am sure one can still be used without these but it will never to be to the extent that God would like to use them for self, pride, fear, etc will commonly get in the way. I agree with the following statement by Ms. Kuhlman, “…To this very day, there is nothing more repulsive to me than the lack of wisdom…There is one thing I can’t stand, and that is fanaticism – the manifestations of the flesh that bring a reproach on something that is so marvelous, something that is so sacred.”

There is such a drive in me for the church to become again that oasis for those who are thirsting purely after God and the Anointing of the miraculous to touch their situations. It is here that I have been lately in consecration and in prayer/worship. It is as if I’m seeing the big picture for the first time. This has only come after the Lord had me on a 30 day Word consecration and now a 10 day fast in which I have never broke down the way I did on New Year’s Day. Nothing else matters to me anymore except seeing people who need to find God, find Him and find the real God, not the one the church has created. Nothing else matters to me anymore except seeing the church go from fanaticism to true, genuine and pure worship and reverence toward a God that nothing is impossible with and can make the way of escape out of any situation…including physical death.

I understand more and more as I read the many testimonies that occurred during the many services Ms. Kuhlman conducted that anyone who has a responsibility in a service as such must have first died to self so that they are completely out of His way, they must second have the heart of a servant and realize they are solely there to be a vessel to Him, to be that point of faith, that agreement for someone who may or may not know they need it, and thirdly they must have understanding of the different types of healings that can manifest (some do happen over a period of time) as well as the different types of individuals and their mindsets that will be present. Only when you can understand and relate to someone can you truly be effective.

I believe the Lord is identifying and promoting this year individuals who realize this really isn’t about them. It is truly about Him and His work. He is trying people’s hearts and dealing with individuals in ways He hasn’t before and I believe He is connecting individuals, who are seeking after Him to other individuals who get it and disconnecting individuals, who are seeking after Him from those who don’t.

It’s not personal…it’s just Spirit!

Cast Down Your Mountain

The saying, “Don’t make a mountain out of a mole hill” is a saying we, as believers, should adhere to. I wonder how many, like myself in the recent past, have gotten to the place where we began to create mountains in our lives out of mole hills (situations) and thereby exalting those mountains over the God that we serve.

With all the changes taking place recently it seems that we have to stretch ourselves in faith in so many different areas of our walk. It isn’t as in the beginning of our walks where we had the luxury of focusing our faith on one area at a time. Now, we have to stretch our faith to cover a multitude of areas in our walks at one time, and in this it is easy to allow some of one’s mole hills (situations) to become mountains, especially if you have been dealing with those mole hills (situations) over a period of time and it “appears” as if nothing is changing.

The end of a year is usually a time where one reflects on the failures and successes of the year that is coming to a close. One begins to reflect on where they are at, where they came from and where they know they should be. For me, I have never received the type of revelation that I have received this year but I also have not experienced death (the dying of one’s SELF) as I have experienced this year. It is as if I was like the pumpkins at Halloween that individuals carve to make Jack O Lanterns. It is as if God Himself carved open my top and began to scoop out everything that was NOT of Him, Perceptions, Mindsets, Religion, Self (to name a few), uncomfortable to say the least.

As more of what wasn’t Him came out, more of what IS Him became abundantly clear. One thing that was clear is that I had allowed the mole hills (situations) to become mountains and I was beginning to exalt those mountains over God. I began to meditate on these mole hills (situations) until they became as big mountains in front of me. Mountains that were beginning to obstruct my Vision. Now, rather then seeing clearly in front of me I was trying to see around the mountains at the vision. I was trying to jump up to see above the mountains at the vision. The bigger the mountains got the smaller the vision became and the smaller I felt. This is because for me there is no me without vision. Mix those emotions with the emotions that one experiences because they are about to birth that vision and you have an individual headed straight toward the spirit of oppression, depression and fear. It can be very overwhelming.

Recently, as I lay on what I felt was my deathbed, as I lay and went over every mountain and all that was in me that has yet to be released or seen, the change that I know the Lord placed in me to birth that would probably go against what religion has taught us, I heard the Lord whisper to me, “Daughter, with man this is impossible, but with Me NOTHING is impossible”. At that moment it was like something went off in me again. It was as if that fire was ignited again. “Yes Father, You are right. I serve the God of the impossible. How dare I begin to exalt my situations and glorify my situations over the God who can make the impossible…possible”. He then revealed to me regarding the mountains that had created themselves (with my assistance I’m sure). And only one in relationship with God can sit at His feet and allow Him to reveal what has created one’s mountain. For everyone it is different, it could be fear, pride, a mindset, low self-esteem, rejection, the sense of failure, bad choices, one’s past, lack, and the list of course can go on and on. I was so focused on that which was impossible in my situations that I was missing what was possible not only at this particular moment but what could be possible in the near future.

He then shared with me that back in August He had dealt with me about the vision for my life and how I was entering into my last trimester of someone who was to give birth. 2009 is going to be the year of the birth. It is going to be the year that we begin to birth that which has been in us. Every change that has taken place this year is because He has had to step into what man created and dismantle it so that He could begin to build what He designed. Everything from churches, ministries, our country, school systems, the economy, and our relationships to name a few.

He then took me to Isaiah 54 which begins with the speaking of the barren woman. A woman who is barren is a woman who is not able to produce. Of course, with vision, both men and women can be barren. He revealed to me three reasons why so many of us have become barren and not able to birth that which is in us. (1.) Some of us are not able to birth because we have not yet arrived at the place where the birth is to take place. For some, that place may not exist yet or that place may exist but may not be ready for one yet. (2.) Some of us are attempting to birth in a place that doesn’t belong to us, and rather then release that place because of fear or pride we attempt to force that place to be the place for the birth (3.) Some of us have been so beat up and so focused on our mountains that we don’t feel we have the strength to give birth. We must see the birth of vision as important and we must see the importance of now birthing what God has designed and not what we desire to create. The reason it is important is because there are others connected to our vision. Someone’s restoration, faith, healing, peace, prosperity, salvation and so on are connected to the change we are to birth. Church/God can no longer be about being entertained or made to “feel” good it must be about seeing His work come to pass. It can no longer be about the titles, the exposure, the entourages, the celebrities but becoming a servant. It can no longer be about the lifestyle it must be about the life. What is the point of having a lifestyle if you have no foundation or knowledge on how to maintain it? In Isaiah 54 the children that are to inherit the nations, inhabit the desolate cities and be taught by the Lord are the children of the vision. The children that are a product of the vision we birth.

Now how do we get all this done? Well in Isaiah 54 the Lord instructs the barren woman to sing. For us it is simple, we speak it. The Lord instructed me to (1.) Speak to my mountains and cast them down (2.) Get His perception and His mindset on where I am at and where I am headed (3.) No longer worship Him from the place in which I am at the moment but to worship Him from the place in which I am to be, the place that belongs to me, that place that has been mine since the foundation of the world, since before I was in my mother’s womb, since when He created man, He created them and blessed them, basically since He created my mate, He created We and Empowered Us! (That is another message)

I am no longer focused on the day to day. Now that the mountains have been removed and I can clearly see what is in front of me I am focused on the big picture. Those connected to the vision and those I am to be connected to for the vision. I’m focused on what is to take place a year from now, 3 years from now, 7 years from now. This is the place where I worship Him from, the place of it being already done. I’m speaking Word not for where I am at now but for where I am going to be. After all, where I am at now is a product of either the Word I did speak or chose not to speak. I’m speaking Word now so when my moment comes I will walk into that Word. That moment will be covered and prepared for me. I will walk into a place designed and destined for ME. A place where I am not only going to receive the Harvest I am to receive at that moment but I am also going to receive the Harvest I should have received had those mountains or even choices not prolonged it. It is what we call Restoration and this is why Restoration has to bring double. Your not just receiving the Harvest for that moment, you are also receiving the Harvest from the past. One thing I am learning is that when you are focused on Him and what He (not man) has called you to do, you can’t help but receive what is yours, whether it is the one you came out of or the one that came out of you (mate-should you desire that), the possession of land, your inheritance, healing, strength, peace, promotion and so on.

Not just naturally but spiritually we are in an exciting transition. And everything and everyone who played a part up to this point, good or bad should be appreciated for without the good and the bad you would have never learned or grown or gotten, like me, to that place where you know that you know that you know where you are headed and what it is to look like. No more counterfeits, no more confusion, no more guessing. It will be exactly as He placed in you. So, moving forward, don't allow the mole hills (temporary situations) in your life to become permanent mountains.

According to Mark 11:23 once you speak to your mountain(s) to be removed and cast into the sea, doing so without doubt in your heart and believing it is done…it is done. Once removed it is important to ensure that you begin to speak His will and not your own for we have what we say and in this moment we must ensure that this time around we are speaking and in what doesn’t just "appear" to be Him to the onlookers (which is where we have been at) but that we are in what "IS" Him! And you will know what IS Him because you will see the fruit, you will see the growth. You won't be experiencing loss you will be experiencing gain. And though challenges may come you will have this memorial that with God, NOTHING is impossible.